Featured Artist * NAM 

FancyJLondon ©2015 All Rights Reserved This is a bio feature representing artist and survivor Nam. This person chose to not reveal their identity for personal reasons.

  
 I go by the name of NAM, I am a 32 year old male who survived 20 years of abuse by an alcoholic, drug fiend family who physically and mentally assaulted me on daily basis for about two decades. 
One day I decided that I wanted a family. I married the wrong woman during college. She had planned to ride out my heart and my student loans, then leave me when college was finished. Yet, before receiving the divorce papers, she was already involved with another man. They pawned her $6000 ring, (I bought) for $175. bucks. 

After a hard lesson learned, I was left with forty-two dollars, my bicycle, and shell shocked. Going from abused, to a college/family man, to a graduate and then, to… divorced and homeless all in one felt swoop. 

  
Wandering, place to situations, blissful to nightmarish, real folks to sterile shelters, (if I got to them on time). I indulged the tempting, luscious, and the appalling this country offers for free, but before long I found myself a drug addict.
Ashamed, to be like my father, I panhandled, and in a couple of weeks afforded a hotel room, for only two days. Sobriety I did, Somehow, thankfully! Then found a job paying $7.59 an hour, still a job. One manager let me stay at his house until I got an apartment. I Lived there for three months, finally able to find my own place.

I paid him back in FULL plus some! What a Great Man!!!

Around 2 to 3 months after being hired, I was crossing the highway and, an SUV hit me … Going 50 m.p.h. (Yes, I had the right-a-way)! The driver was ticketed and I had a long harsh four years of standing back up. Physical therapy, pain clinics, needles, injections, and 5 surgeries within a year and a half of each other and 2 more recently, making it 7 in total only with more to come.

  
I live with chronic pain, (RSD) excessive damage in both my hips and shoulder. Lost my job, my health insurance, my home and, I’m permanently disabled. My blessings that come out of all my anguish and suffering are my loving fiancé and my wonderful, caring step-son, that has adopted me. They have stayed by my side through ALL! Two rarities arriving into my life during the struggles, surgeries, and the death of my abusive father.

I decided to pour all of my pain and suffering into something beautiful, ART! 

I create abstract colorful dark imagery with mystically alluring details. You can find my art on my website about.me/the_nam_nation for fair prices. 

Here are a few examples:

  
   
 

Feel free to follow me on twitter @the_nam_nation 

What I have acquired through all my devastating experiences has become priceless.

• Teaching me consistency and genuine unconditional love.

• Encouraging me to live life leaving all negativity in the past.

• Learning how to live in a normal environment.

• Proudly remaining drug free and humble through it all.

“I want to thank FancyJ London for featuring me she has really inspired me and I am grateful to have had a chance to know her. To my fiancé and step-son for all their love and support. To my friends, and all who have actively supported me on social media from around the world…I hope this inspires you.” -NAM 
 

About The Author: FancyJ London  

Producer, RecordingArtist, Singer, Songwriter, Model, Writer, Avid Blogger, Columnist, Owner of “Revista Fancy” Newsletter, Photographer, Fashion Designer/Illustrator, Artist/Cartoonist, Founder of CoreFancy, Corazul, and Walk with Me Nonprofit organization, Social Networking Butterfly, Traveler, and Gemini! 

“I believe we as artists must support our fellow talented wandering souls out there to reach the stars! The best success comes when you unite, not divide!” ~FancyJ

fancyjlondon@gmail.com

http://www.fancyjlondon.com

I will Sing

FancyJLondon ©2015 (All Rights Reserved)  

What are you going to do when the sun goes away

What are you going to do when the sky turns gray

What are you going to do when your not feeling so strong

What are you going to do when the conditions are wrong

SING even if your off key

Sing in the shower, sing at the beach

Sing to the moon and birds in the trees

Sing to the radio, pump up the beat

Sing in the rain, sing in the storm

Sing until you make the world fall to your feet

SING out loud with me

I learned today happiness is found in me…so I’m going to SING

When the rain falls down…I won’t hide in my house

When the day is hard and unbearable…I won’t cry

When the conditions are wrong for sure…I’ll make them right

When the crowd starts a brawl I will stand my ground…not fight

When I feel like nothing will change…I will switch up the game

When my whole world comes crashing down… I will SING

SING even if your off key

Sing in the shower, sing at the beach

Sing to the moon and birds in the trees

Sing to the radio, pump up the beat

Sing in the rain, sing in the storm

Sing until you make the world fall to your feet

SING out loud with me

What are you going to do when the sun goes away

What are you going to do when the sky turns gray

What are you going to do when your not feeling so strong

What are you going to do when the conditions are wrong

What do you say when those who love you, love you just today

What do you think of the friend who is only there when everything’s good

What do you feel when the person you love, loves you with conditions

What do you do to show them all you have won……
Ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh……

SING baby, even if your off key

Sing in the shower, sing at the beach

Sing to the moon and birds in the trees

Sing to the radio, pump up that beat

Sing in the rain, sing in the storm

Sing until you make the world fall to your feet

Oooooh ooooooh ooooooooooh

Just SING out loud with me

Slice IT UP

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Written By: FancyJ London ©2014 
Grab it firmly, watch it pulse
Lean in for, an extra dose
Gushing red, running cold
Better do it quickly
Before it explodes

Slice it up
Dice it up
Stab it hard
Watch gush
Ok…now, that’s enough

God, it’s black
Feel the wrath
This to, shall pass
Running scared
From all you feared
You brought it out with a blade
now you must feel my rage

Your killing it, driving over
now you’ve shown
that your even colder
forever looking
over your shoulder
for what you’ve done
you shall always RUN

Slice it up
Dice it up
Stab it hard
Watch gush
Ok now, that’s enough
That’s enough, THAT’S ENOUGH…

The Difference

Cheater

FancyJLondon ©2013

Everything took a turn for the worst lately

Just when things were looking up they fell down

When you thought is was getting better you hit ground

Sitting there in silence tears not making a sound

Heart beating slow, slow enough to let go

Deep inside you know you just wish it wasn’t so……

it wasn’t so…..so…….

He told you a secret,

you never would’ve believed it

You thought he was different,

but in the end you figure out the difference

Lasting a few years was good enough

Then they tell you focus on the good stuff

Memories tear our souls apart

You can’t live with this broken heart

He told you a secret,

you would’ve never believed it

You thought he was different,

but in the end you figure out the difference

Yaaaah…….

Ya dee yah.. ya dee yah…. ya dee yah…..

It all sounds the same

Ya dee yah.. ya dee yah…. ya dee yah….

I don’t care to know anything

He told you a secret,

you never would’ve believed it

You thought he was different,

but in the end you figure out the difference
…..the difference…. the difference…..the difference

Hit ME

 

FancyJLyrics

WrittenBY:FancyJ London ©2013

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Hit ME

Hit Me

You can’t hurt me now

You stand there yelling,

your proud head starts swelling

Deep piercing words shoot out of your mouth,

like bullets ricocheting off a high mount

Red faced, steaming like a lobster,

you grit your teeth and growl like a monster

Go ahead, Go ahead, Hit Me…….Go Ahead Hit Me

Set it off quickly…..

Pound it out of my chest,

do me a favor, pull out the rest

My bleeding heart has torn half my breast, has torn half my breast

no transfusion can save me now,

just stab me, get it over with somehow, somehow

You stand there yelling,

showing no care at all, my heart beats ever so slow, slow

I just can’t bare.

You beat on my head, pull on my hair,

you punch high and low with no care,

break my ribs with no fear,

nearly killing me just evil stares, evil stares

Go ahead, Go ahead,

H I T M E…….

Pound it out of my chest

Do me a favor, pull out the rest

My bleeding heart has torn half my breast, has torn half my breast

no transfusion can save me now,

just stab me, and get it over with somehow, somehow

Please Go…..d,

Please God, Just take me now……now, now, now…

 

https://fancyj.bandcamp.com/track/hit-me

Paper

 Written by: FancyJLondon

FancyJLyrics©2013

PAPER

You pull me out,

I feel bright and clean,

there is nothing that could, could damage me.

Then you carefully, set me down,

as not to tear me or rip my heart out,

You guard me carefully in a folder, marked LOVE.

As if I knew you would, care for me like you should, holding me in safeness,

I should’ve have known it was to good….

I should have known it was to good….

Coughing up the dust

I can’t seem to lift myself up.

The weight it holds me down,

and you, you are no where to be found.

As if I knew you would, care for me like you should, holding me in safeness,

I should’ve have known it was to good….

Then one day,

you came for me,

you opened me up and dusted me off

 you scratch me with black words

you tore my soul,

you crumpled me up,

like an old newspaper.

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As if I knew you would,

care for me like you should,

and hold me in safeness,

I should’ve have known,

I should’ve known,

 it was to good,      

it was to GOOD……to be.